I had to face this question myself last Friday. I was really down on myself and the last thing I wanted to do was go to my small group cookout surrounded by lots of people I barely knew. I tried to imagine the scenario if I were to turn on the light, roll out of bed, and drive myself to Anderson for this thing. I pictured myself sitting in a corner pouting, possibly munching down on way too many Doritos, expecting someone to come to my rescue. It was a scenario I'd lived out hundreds of times before, so why not do it again?
Then I started thinking further...These people don't know me yet. They don't know that I'm funny, smart, enthusiastic, or quirky. All they know is what I show them on the outside; the person I am on a day-to-day basis. It hit me that none of those good qualities mean anything if I'm not living them out. If I allow the above scenario to be played out over and over again, I will be "that girl who is always sad." Nobody wants to be friends with that girl. "That's not me," I thought...but if you think about it, that really IS me...that's the person I was throughout most of last week.
With my new revelation suddenly taking over my body, I hopped out of bed, flicked on the light, and I went to that cookout. Not as "that girl who is always sad", but as "that girl who's pretty funny." It ended up being an amazing night!
It's funny, because as Christians we make it a point to model Jesus' behavior to the world around us. We expect others to see our sparkling personalities and go after the relationship that we have with Him. If we aren't consistent with this behavior, though, how are we ever going to be good Christian role models? Therefore, as friends and/or readers of my blog, it is now your responsibility on days when I'm having a pity party to walk up to me, flick me on the back of the head, and say "Morgan, you are being that girl."
If I'm not portraying this level of happiness at all times, please let me know.
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